Lonely Teardrops

i dont really know about any lonely teardrops, but i can talk about teardrops a bit. The thing is that almost always when i take a big yawn, i usually tear up a bit. I dont know exactly why, but i do. Also when i am really tired, and i am lying down and watching t.v, but im forcing myself not to fall asleep with all the might that i can muster. Ok. I was kinda lying about not knowing any lonely teardrops, but it was mainly because i dont know how to start my story off, since it involves many other things that are very hard to paraphrase. So i decided to start writing about teardrops, but that didnt inspire me at all, so now i will write lonely and hope that something comes from that. ok, here it goes. I usually feel lonely when i am on a bus by myself (duh). It's sometimes weird though, since when im by myself i just sleep or whatnot to get home as fast as possible. Some days i even look forward to sleeping so i can just have a nice relaxing noise free time. Well, as long as no passangers on the bus are yelling to each other. Also sometimes when im with my friends, i feel like being alone, not because of isolation, but because im usually tired and just dont want to hastle with paying attention. So anyways, i like being alone lots of times. The problem is that that is usually when people are around me, and when i want to be with anybody, noone is there. It's a pretty funny world we live in. I'm sure i am not the only one that this happens to. Maybe i just notice things more when you want the opposite. Like if you want to be with your friends, and your talking with them, you dont feel any specific emotion. But when you do want to talk to the, and you can't, you feel sad and remember it better. I also just realized, this very second, that people remember more from a bad moment than a good one. Some good moments you do remember and never forget, but minor moments you will forget. An example is when someone opens you the door, as long as your not attracted to them, youll forget soon. But if a person closes a door infront of your face, you will most likely remember it for a couple of days if not weeks, months, or years to come. Ok, so now about the real topic, i dont really want to write about it since its kinda personal, so im going to do what i do when i have nothing else to write.